I believe it’s simply because I’m not done learning about myself and loving me for who I am. I left my relationship because I couldn’t deal with it anymore. I didn’t know who I was and what I wanted anymore. He was my world and it wasn’t enough anymore because I didn’t know how to be still without him and that was a problem. I wasn’t satisfied with settling because I knew I would wake up ten years later with regret and ask myself why I didn’t leave for myself? So I took a chance and became single. I was broken and lost at first. Being alone is hard, you are faced with some real shit, shit you’ve been hiding from yourself for a long time. After some distractions I realized I had to face my problems head on in order to move on. There was no other way but I was not going to let fear determine how I live my life. I’m still single now because God isn’t done with me, I’m not ready to be placed with another soul. I know I want love now, I can sense I’m close to being ready again but with all the things going on God is working on the timing. Yes, I get impatient sometimes and because of that I make a mess and drive myself crazy but I always come back to him. God knows how much I want to love someone and have someone love me but that person just isn’t here yet. No one is worth me yet, and that, is why I’m still single. Because he knows whoever I love, will be given the world.
Krystal
Krystal